I know nothing about revelation. Yet, the previous sentence was revealed. I did not think & write that sentence. That happens to me, often. !
In fact, I wasn’t even thinking about writing on this. Until I met Bhai Baldeep Singh (Anad foundation), who in a very candid conversation cared to explain the difference between something that is composed & otherwise, revealed.
Bhai ji shared a personal story of the time when he was trying to compose a rhythmic composition on Jori. ! He sat for few hours & maybe days (I dont remember the precise details) making an effort, trying to put together a composition. But it didn’t come through. And then he went silent. He invited & courted silence in his mind. He created that space that was required for the composition to be born or better, revealed. After few hours of sitting in silence, it came to him & he started scribbling on his notebook without much thought but with an impeccable flow. A beautiful composition was thus revealed.
Since the day he shared this story, I have been thinking about it. Yesterday this story came up again in a different conversation with another friend of mine, who was present when Bhai ji shared his story. And while listening to the story again, something dawned upon me. And that was why composition & revelation are so different. And what makes them so different.
At a fundamental level, the difference between a composition & revelation lies in the sense of responsibility. Do I consider myself responsible for creating this stuff ? Or I just shake my hands off all responsibility & hand it over to a miraculous & mysterious being who just takes care of me.
Do I view this world as a place where every one is on his own & I have to fight with the last man left to survive ? Do I view this world as a hostile place where every one is here to “get” me & I have to prove myself to be the smartest person anyone could surround himself with ?
Or Do i view this world as a caring, comfortable place where a universal force takes care of not just me but everyone. Do I not understand but “know” that everyone is just the same ? Do I “know” the Oneness of this universe ?
What I have come to understand in my own life is that I have been struggling really hard to compose my life. I want a certain set of experiences & shun the rest. I want a certain kind & type of people in my life, rest are wasting my time. I want to learn a particular skill because that will get me the next job. Heck, I choose to mate on certain days of the month because I want to compose a baby. ! What a composed life.
Why can not I let life reveal itself to me ? Why not have a little faith & embrace all experiences & people & let life live it through me.
For that to happen, my mind has to go silent. My mind has to let go of all the control & really know that at the end of it, it’s not me who’s calling the shots – that’s just an illusion. My mind has to open up to serendipitous experiences of the life.
It’s the same as Baba Nanak lived his revealed life & in the process revealed “ਧੁਰ ਕੀ ਬਾਣੀ” (dhur ki baani) to us.
ਕਰਣੀ ਕਾਰ ਧੁਰਹੁ ਫੁਰਮਾਈ ਆਪਿ ਮੁਆ ਮਨੁ ਮਾਰੀ ॥
ਨਾਨਕ ਨਾਮੁ ਮਹਾ ਰਸੁ ਮੀਠਾ ਤ੍ਰਿਸਨਾ ਨਾਮਿ ਨਿਵਾਰੀ ॥5॥2॥
karanee kaar dhurahu furamaaee aap muaa man maaree |
naanak naam mehaa ras meethaa thrisanaa naam nivaaree |5|2|
Composed – 07/12/2015